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Sebastian 6

happiness!!!

i woke up in my own bed, an uncommon event, but a nice one!

i played detective again since it turned out so successful yesterday…

soooo a lady walked into the ward today, HARDING’S WIFE!!! ugh that mans an idiot…u have to TOUCH YOUR WIFE TO BE ACCEPTED!! marriage is shit! why put yourself in a a position where you are forced to be committed and ATTACHED to another person?!?!?!?!  ugh people today; hey don’t conceder them damned bugs, and disease. oh and not to mention that suddenly the burdens of that one person become your too. i strongly, honestly, and whole heartedly believe that i have enough of my own damn problems that i don’t need the nagging of another person who constantly wants my company.anyways…mariiage is stupid and Harding is so concerned with what people think of his wife…like as if he’s asking if she’s worth having her come in physical contact with or something. we could get some Mila Kunis up in here and she would not even be snapping here hippie wana be perfect pre-teen actress fingers even close to me.

so…..that wasn’t the only thing i found out today….

McMurphy is getting messed up. i thought he wasn’t going to let this place effect him but he’s breaking down, poor guy…someone should console him…

oh and i guess this is a shock to McMurphy and others but I’ve known all along…Ratched can do pretty much anything to anyone at anytime she want…yes, that does include a lobotomy :O

psssshhhh I’m just messing…McMurphy’s too crazy to give up or be phased by this place…dun du duuuuuunnnnn!!!!! he rebels for some cigarettes!!! he straight up punched a damn window and didn’t even care!!! ah that man is impressive..but I’m not.

so people were freakin out and of course someone had to bump me, i flipped…and I’ve been in isolation ever since!! night:)

 

Sebastian 5

hmmmm i did my best to stay out of trouble and away from people today. i was quite successful if i do say so myself. okay so I was feelin’ investigatorish today since i had been locked up for a while. i do quite like to keep myself informed on current events; and seeing as how i would prefer not to confront people to ask for information, i sneak around by my lonesome like Sherlock Holmes status (or maybe more of Spiderman since Sherlock Holmes tends to have a sidekick investigator with him) and eavesdrop to find out the hottest news floatin’ around. so even Chief could have found this out if he was blind as well as his current condition, but its the best news that i got today: Cheswick DIED!!!!!!! like he’s straight up no longer breathing, he can’t communicate, he can’t move on his own, and he’s kind of a funky color. like holy shit he has finally gotten out of this ward!!!!!!!!! good for him:)  BUT… there was something else today that i caught a glimpse of while we were out at the pool…..

something is up with McMurphy….that asshole is a hypocrite, or maybe he’s just hella fake and he couldn’t keep up with himself. either way, HE HAS CHANGED!!! now, I’m not positive if I’m just so brilliant and have a knack for picking up on change in mood and intentions, or if people are just to dumb to care, or if everyone knows but isn’t saying or doing anything about it. anyways, the point, McMurphy is acting peculiar, as in he isn’t acting out. he’s totally reserved now….like he still looks big and intimidating and i would never approach him to voice my concern, BUT, i feel that if i were a social person then i wouldn’t fear voicing my opinion to him, compared to usual. like, he used to have two cents about everything and now not so much. ooooooooo oooo oooooo he’s going along with everything…he used to deliberately make his own path, but now its like he wants to be like us or something; which I’m totally cool with because maybe he won’t try and talk to me!!!!!!!

see, a very successful day!!!

Sebastian 4

why do people do what ever it takes to draw attention to themselves?!?! singing…wearing only a towel(its not like we can read minds or have Clark Kent see threw vision to know there were shorts underneath)….and flicking hunks of butter. why can’t McMurphy just learn to stay to himself.  He disrupts the peace…and ya peace can include music playing loudly throughout the entire room. He can just create some make-shift ear plugs.

oh ya, i was in isolation again for a bit. i don’t quite understand what the big deal was…i was purely trying to protect my well being. there is this one individual whom i don’t particularly like. in fact i pretty much straight up hate them with such a fiery passion. so my story in a nut shell

-creeper guy suppose to be in full isolation 24/7

-creeper guy sweet talk some idiot to let him take a stroll

-creeper guy walks past our chill room

-creeper guy insists to shout that he has a secret

-creeper guy stares me down

-i shout for creeper guy to not close the distance between us

-creeper guy increases momentum  towards me

-in safety of my life i throw everything and anything into the path between creeper guy and myself

-i may have grabbed some sort of extremely life threatening object from my pocket

-as self defense….i wound up to fiercely in preparation to quickly fling the life threatening object towards creeper guy

-i was tackled from behind and hog tied

-i woke up in isolation

i still don’t see why i was punched for self defense…the creeper guy shouldn’t have even been around me!

oooooooo ooo ooooo i did get to hear some annoying news about McMurphy from Borris. that crazy beep needs to shut his trap. why make a new schedule? why place people in close quarters to watch other people be in close quarter? the world series is nothing but a bunch of people hitting things and other people….ew! no one wants to watch that. damn McMurphy has the brain of an idiot…making human idiot! ugh because of him that dangerous group meeting lasted longer than it had to…ugh he is increasing my heart rate constantly, which is not good for my health…inconsiderate ass hole….UUUGGGHH!!!!!

 

Sebastian 3

idiots. why did Borris lean towards me??!?!?! ugh and i didn’t fucking hit his friend, he has no friends, no one likes that guy. however he is very knowledgable when it come to fire, causing trouble, and destroying things. ya that Norman character that Borris keeps talking about, i don’t know what to think of him. i mean what kind of man are you if you cant even confront me about “hitting him.” i swear i didn’t but ya i don’t know what he wants me to do about it now. what ever i don’t see the point in taking time to deal with people if i can truly avoid it….thats my preference!

so this McMurphey dude is kinda questionable…actually he is extremely questionable. like his conversations are a bit too out there, i don’t even know half the things he’s talking about. he keeps using this fancy word in front of that “bad thing” that he did to that poor girl; its not as if that word is going to make what he did aright. that “bad thing” is bad…no matter what fancy words he mixes it with! ugh and he totally made my heart skip a beat earlier. i was just chillin in the chill room playing cards, oh and he just had to get close. he is just lucky that i kept my cool, he has not been here too long, eventually he will catch on. anyways, he was telling some sentimental story and just had to put his hand on my shoulder to make it all the more serious and sincere. damn that creep of a babysitter used to touch my shoulder, ugh.

oh and he also pulled some scandalous stunt, thinking he’s all hot in a towel and that Ratchet will bend to his game…psh. gross! man everyone here is strange…like Chief especially. he’s tweakin not taking his meds. nobody wants to hear his insanity about what they “really” do when we are sleeping. and how do we know he didn’t kill that lad. i mean honestly, what is his issue, he must learn to follow the paved path.

Sebastian 2

finally got my journal back! wouldn’t you think that while in seclusion you could write your true feelings, rather than while being surrounded by intruding thoughts and nosey people. but nooooo, i wasn’t allowed the pleasure of having a place to write my feelings since i did a bad thing. gosh, i didn’t even over react, plus i warned the guy.

i don’t feel comfortable being in the room with everyone, so I’m roaming the halls.

i’ve noticed that the mean nurse lady and her helper person have been in that room at the far end of the hall (that end that no ones suppose to go to). i always want to know what….footsteps…ugh that Lary guy always has to walk in the center of the hall. he’s lucky i already naturally hug the walls when i walk. he’s walking closer to me, slowing down, stopping.

really? they sent one of the creepiest guys to come tell me to go to the group meeting. i don’t think I’m prepared for this. i don’t like sitting in circles; it’s too personal. well, here goes my sanity.

sooo this McMurphy guy is kind of pissing me off. i envy is outgoingness, but he needs to get with the program. he’s stirring people up. Boris is getting closer…..i swung at him….he knows he shouldn’t lean in to tell me something. well good thing i missed, but he keeps rambling about how i didn’t miss and i hit his friend. but i totally didn’t not that i can recall. then again one of them black boys was on top of me dragging me out of the room before i could even seen the destruction i caused. what ever. now i get to sit in my room.

 

Dr.’s Note

possible progress:

-he caused great commotion during our group session

-was able to walk only a foot apart from the black boy on his way to his room

Sebastian

Finally alone

No worries

My space

My bubble

 

Ahhh, idiots these days, they’re so touchy feely. I mean why the hell do you need to be close enough to breathe on someone.

 

“Someones going to get bitch slapped if they don’t back off!”

 

Just a friendly warning, I don’t get why people run when I say that rather than calmly giving me some space. Anyways this guy needs to be shaved but I’m totally feeling his pain in wanting his space. But as long as they are all moving towards him I can view him as a friend, doing me a favor.

 

How harsh, Chief has to get shaved today. Oh boy I have such sympathy for him, but he’s an idiot. Why risk having those hands reaching for you? He’s a brave one! Ah I cant even look. Whheewww time for my quiet place (close my eyes).

 

Arg I hate this damn place. Can’t they just put me in a room to be by myself? They act like they care about you, like they want to give u a helping hand. But what they don’t listen to is that I don’t want there helping hand, and I don’t need comfort through a hug. I do my best to be nice but noooo they have to look at me  like I’m a crazy person going to attack them. So rude!

 

Great, here comes another person, just great.

Ew he looks gross. Oh goodness oh goodness he’s coming towards!!!!!!!

 

“Whoa buddy please back off!”

 

Why is he still coming towards me? His hand is raising. He’s goat learn to respect a man hear…

 

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Dr. Note For The Day

Sebastian had an aggressively dangerous episode today.

McMurphy approached Sebastian and learned first hand about how unanticipated his aggressive outbursts are.

Sebastian is now in seclusion due to his last episode, which consisted of:

-Screaming bloody murder

-Got all the chronics wound-up

-Threw tables

-Threw himself into the walls

-Ran all threw the ward, found the darkest corner, and huddled in a ball

-Anytime someone came near him the foaming at his mouth increased and would begin flailing

-We left him there until he passed out and transferred him in an isolation room for a while

Hypocrites & Phonies

Hypocrisy can be found in many places that one looks. It can be seen among the rich, and those who dream of having glamorous lifestyle. Even teenagers display hypocrisy. One may claim to not be a hypocrite, however, when a third party views their life, that third party may view themselves as one of the largest hypocrites. In The Great Gatsby and The Catcher in the Rye, there are obvious examples of hypocrisy throughout the story line.

The Great Gatsby has several examples of hypocrisy. Myrtle is a wonderful example of hypocrisy and phonies. She lives a double life throughout the wealthy Tom Buchanan; all the while, her husband, Wilson, remains a mechanic in the Valley of the Ashes. “My dear,” she cried, “I’m going to give you this dress ass soon as I’m through with it. I’ve got to get another one tomorrow. I’m going to make a list of all the things I’ve got to get. A massage and a wave, and a collar for the dog, and one of those cute little ash-trays where you touch a spring, and  a wreath with a black silk bow for mother’s grave that’ll last all summer. I got to write down a list so I won’t forget all the things I got to do.” (Fitzgerald,) This quote was spoken by Myrtle as she was talking to Mrs. McKee, in Myrtle and Tom’s apartment in the city. The quote is a perfect example of how Myrtle acts like a phony. In a rich environment, Myrtle does her best to have those around her, believing that she belongs there. She speaks to Mrs. McKee as though she, herself, actually has the money to do all those things on her spoken list. When in reality, that evening, she will be returning to her lowly husband and a mechanic shop for a home. Hypocrites aren’t only found among adults, but among teens as well. The Catcher in the Rye portrays phonies as well.

Holden Caulfield is one to judge, deciding who is or is not a phony. He is harsh with his opinion, basing his judgment simply on what he sees or hears after mere minutes. Holden himself could be classified as a phony. He consistently claims to hate shows, yet every time he sits in the audience, he is being hypocritical. When caught in a jam, Holden is quick to lie, rather than speaking the truth. He even stated, “If I’m on my way to the store to buy a magazine, even, and somebody asks me where I’m going, I’m liable to say I’m going to the opera.” (Salinger, 16) Those that Holden criticizes most for hypocrisy are those who go to the shows, operas, and who never show the bad in their life. However, every time Holden lies, he portrays himself as the same phonies that he judges all the time. Holden is a phony about his life, just as much as Myrtle.

The catcher in the Rye and The Great Gatsby both characterize phonies and hypocrisy. Myrtle and Holden are characters in different positions. Myrtle flaunts having money when she’s with Tom, while Holden has nice things but isn’t loud about it. Both are hypocrites in their own way. Myrtle can make people feel low, about not having as much money as she does when she is with Tom. At the same time she keeps it hushed, that in reality she is on the lower end of society; the very side that she loudly criticizes. She only wants people to view her as wealthy, the center of a good life. While in his lie, Holden associates him self with the very people he would criticize of hypocrisy. He has a life in his mind, being a judgmental teenager who hates phonies. Through his lies and actions, he lives as a rich boy who goes on dates to shows and operas.

Both characters give a literary representation of hypocrisy. Both try to live two lives. They spend time talking, or thinking poorly about whichever life setting they are not living at the moment. Hypocrisy is among all societies and cultures. Whether it’s being critical of a social class or the way someone talks, even the way someone may present themselves to a group. Comparing hypocrites and phonies from different book, different cultures and lifestyles, conveys the idea that you don’t have to be in any certain environment to find a phony. Hypocrites are all around. One may even catch themselves being a hypocrite if they reflect on their past, or if they stop and reevaluate the present situation.

American Icon

A fence can be used to symbolize America and everyone living there. A fence is a simple border line, a way to show what belongs to you, and no one else. It also belongs to the American Dream, with a white picket fence, surrounding your land and what you call your home. It is a fence or a wall that everyone puts up when they want to be left alone. Also, America has a fence along the countries boarders; allowing in only people who they approve of. A fence represents America and Americans.

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Sports of the Roaring 20′s

Boxers Jack Dempsey vs. Georges Carpentier in New Jersey, in 1921

Boxers Jack Dempsey vs. Georges Carpentier in New Jersey, in 1921

Babe Ruth set the record of 60 home runs in 1927

Babe Ruth set the record of 60 home runs in 1927

Johnny Weissmuller swam 100m in 58.6 seconds in 1922

Johnny Weissmuller swam 100m in 58.6 seconds in 1922

The Reasons for the Salem Witch Trials

Throughout the Salem Witch Trials, as depicted in The Crucible, by Arthur Miller, there are several characters that can be seen as the cause for the trials. Even though the play has been read by different audiences, the people blamed for the trials could be agreed upon. Individuals could be seen as the cause for the trials in different lights and perspectives. The blame for the trials must fall on someone or something there are select individuals that the Salem Witch trials can be pinned on. The three possible candidates are viewed as three distinctly different characters, Tituba, Abigail, and Parris.

Tituba is a prime example of an obvious candidate to be blamed for the trials. She is an outcast in the village. Based on her ethnicity and culture, Tituba is a straightforward and quick pick for how these trials have started. Being from another country and being able to speak in a different tongue Tituba was without doubt seen as suspicious for calling to evil spirits. As asked by Parris, “She called the devil?”(Miller 187). Abigail then replied, “I know not-she spoke Barbados”(187).   She was seen, from the very beginning, someone who had conjured spirits and conversed with the devil. No one could understand her when she spoke Barbados; she is effortlessly blamed for speaking with the devil, since there was no proof that she was not. Another suspicious act is that she led the girls in dancing and chants in the forest, she helped the presence of witchcraft rise throughout the village, having admitted to fortunetelling. However, Tituba was not the only one blamed for doing works with the devil.

Another character worthy of the blame for the trials is Abigail Williams. She was a young adult in The Crucible. She had participated in fortunetelling in the woods with Tituba. It is her fear of being in trouble and being accused that leads her to further kindling the wrath of the judges, and prosecutors of the trials. Since she had the given innocence of a child, it was simple for her to blame others and add to the list of honestly innocent people being tried as a witch. She was more than willing to point the blame at any one, to keep her name innocent. Abigail states, “I saw Goody Sibber with the devil, I saw Goody Hawkins with the devil, I saw Goody Booth with the devil” (189). It was left to the imagination of a child, to decide how a truthfully innocent person, unfortunately had an encounter with the devil and his work. Pointing the finger at someone else was not the only way the blame could fall on who started the trials.

Reverend Parris was just at fault for starting the trials as Tituba and Abigail. Though Samuel Parris supposedly wanted no part in encountering witchcraft, he beckoned upon Mr. Hale to come to Salem. Bringing Hale to Salem was what stirred the people into the mindset of being on the look out for a witch. “Proctor: did you consult the wardens before you called this minister to look for devils? Parris: he is not coming to look for devils” (179). Parris was in such denial that the illness of his daughter Betty could be caused by anything unnatural. However he was still willing to do anything to find answers, and to solve the mystery of the fits, both his daughter and Abigail would have. Parris wants to bring Hale to rule out the possibility of witchcraft however witchcraft was exactly what Hale found. Samuel Parris would not rest until there was complete justice to who had participated in such unlawful acts.

Those who had done anything suspicious looking, unfortunately, have a part of the Salem Witch trials. Whether a person was an outcast in the village, a frightened girl, or a concerned parent, there is someone or something that is at fault for the trials ever taking place. No one wants to be blamed for what happened in those years of the trials, but that is what leads to people pointing the finger at anyone but themselves. The Salem Witch trials did take place, who was truly at fault for the event, will most likely fall on few select individuals, depending on who you ask.